{"id":627,"date":"2019-11-22T05:35:04","date_gmt":"2019-11-22T05:35:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/ascension.institute\/wordpress\/?p=627"},"modified":"2019-11-22T05:35:04","modified_gmt":"2019-11-22T05:35:04","slug":"healing-trauma","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/positive-red-pigeon.162-223-228-64.wpsquared.site\/index.php\/2019\/11\/22\/healing-trauma\/","title":{"rendered":"Healing Trauma"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

When you grow up in trauma & you don\u2019t heal it, you will choose trauma until you do.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Art by the Amazing Lori Menna @ Cosmic Collage<\/a><\/figcaption><\/figure>\n\n\n\n

I chose men who abused me over the men who loved me. 
I chose friends who didn\u2019t care about me over those who did.
I chose protecting people I shouldn\u2019t, because that was what I was trained to do.
I chose pain over peace.
I chose substances and alcohol over being present.
Etc. Etc. Etc. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Then, one day –  something changed and I chose me and every day since that\u2019s how it\u2019s worked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

One day at a time. One foot in front of the other.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As I walked the path – I realized the common denominator in all of my pain was me. I realized I had been carrying around layers of trauma, I  realized losing my best friend took part of my soul, I realized my relationship with my father had never been appropriate, and I realized I couldn\u2019t ever remember a time where I felt truly safe. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I realized I\u2019d spent my life running and building this false wall of popularity, addiction, manipulation and lies that could protect me from what was I was carrying inside of me. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Layer by layer, bit by bit I did and am continuing to do the work (that\u2019s why it\u2019s called a healing journey, because it is).  I\u2019m learning. I’ve faced my truths. I’ve unpacked it. I’ve sought justice, and mostly I’ve gotten it. I \u2019ve evicted the abuser archetype from my life and most importantly from my own head. I have set down addiction and enjoy sobriety. I accepted my PTSD. I stopped running. Now I try to be of service to help other people walk through the darkness and into the light. It’s our right. We don’t need to live in the dark. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s the greatest work of my life to be able to see people just like me, find out that isn\u2019t a life. It\u2019s a construct and a cage that trauma puts us in. We can free ourselves from past bondage. We can live in harmony and glide more easily through the waves in the flow of life –  (smooth sailing isn\u2019t life on earth – it\u2019s about being in the right kayak). <\/p>\n\n\n\n

We can heal. You are NEVER too broken  to be fixed. You are not what happened to you. You are a light. Your power is your story and your story is your power.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Hang in there. We got this – the best part is when you heal yourself, we heal the world. When you are in balance, so becomes your relationship with the world around you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When you’re ready. I’m ready. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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When you grow up in trauma & you don\u2019t heal it, you will choose trauma until you do. I chose men who abused me over the men who loved me. I chose friends who didn\u2019t care about me over those who did.I chose protecting people I shouldn\u2019t, because that was what I was trained to do.I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"two_page_speed":[],"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[36],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-627","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"aioseo_notices":[],"aioseo_head":"\n\t\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t\n\t\t